--, abuse
why the fuck do i feel so empty
i should be happy, i should be ecstatic. no more abusers... nothing like that, and yet...
I'm reminded of them constantly
the behavior's been imprinted on me
why would i ask for what i want or complain when thousands of times in the past it's gotten me punished for no reason
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i'm in too deep with everything
why couldn't i just live a sheltered happy life
i can't trade this away
i just want to be more confident in myself and healthy and you know fucking what? I don't get that, i never get that
this whole 19 years of my life has been one long string of catastrophes and disasters and i'm at fault for plenty of it
Am a simple nerd and a progressive/technical death metal artist (under the name "Vi-Eden") who really likes girls
I'm big into fighting games, and currently play three games competitively: Slap City (Jenny Fox), Project M (Mario) and BBTAG (Yang/Ruby)
I talk about tech and stuff a lot? Ye.
Did I mention girls??? Also I'm trans