jfc i have got to get out of this house…from people slamming shit and yelling all the time to being all but forced to watch the news every day…i’ll just cuddle with my cat and blåhaj and hope that october comes quickly…
obviously i’d never do it but the thought occurred to me that because of his illness, i could /easily/ kill my father with my bare hands. strange feeling.
it’s kinda rude how when i get in a depressive funk and don’t wanna do anything the thing that makes me feel better is usually just doing the thing smh