74 @asahi@computerfairi.es

this person takes as gospel doctors words even when they inentionally misdiagnosed me

i'm scared
"i'm autistic but undiagnosed" "i'm transgender with denied access" "i have highly disabling migraines but no medical proof" "i don't have studies and can't get out of my house because of undiagnosed mental illness" "i can't be with my family or with people"
what is any of thhat even getting at

"i cant be with my family" is
the scariest words i want to say
because if they dont understand what i mean everything will be awful

i'm scared i don't even know what am i going to say
im forcibly going there

people usually don't even go there being forced to

it's going to go really badly
i dont want to go

and evne if it wasn't bad its a step on a too big of a turning point
and they don't get it

i am very scared

help

time is runing outt and

i dont want to go back to that

i dont know what to do

i'm still a little scared and overwhelmed from all that, but i calmed down since...

i was surprised

@bekaa thank you. i've done other questionaries before, but only kept the results to myself (since it was for self dx, as i'm afraid of a diagnosis without transition care). but i will try this.

shoutouts to this pc98 indie game's hand drawn box art being considerably relatable

nobody knows anything

because they isolate me from everything control at a level i can barely explain to people who do not know
not even they know anything they believe they are good

nobdoy i ever reached believed anyting only them

please help me escape my family

i was dissociating and panicking badly and really not okay
so i drew something with the doodling tool in here to calm down
i don't know

i never expected cooking to be something i enjoyed and to find it calming, huh