74 @asahi@computerfairi.es

i've been feeling awful and dissociating in really complex ways but
the most frustrating is how, unable i am to express things

and because i cant express things i feel i shouldnt do anything...

complicated nostalgic feelings that are impossible to explain
memories of lost dreams...

if something i say is read, anything... please at least tell me you did...
just a sign that im not just quietly crying in the dark

i'm so afraid of people and any interaction i cant even say anything publicly
i cant even say anything to people i should

i just
want to be cute
in spirit, too
but am too broken

i want to replace my body with a cute moth the size of a tiny planet
and live inside the sun

(and also shows why some games really need to emulate the hardware filtering)

this is my favourite poorly emulated game because it runs at the wrong cpu speed so as soon as you start it Everything is Happening Really Fast and it stops at just "Gorl!" and that's one of the most relatable experiences I've ever had https://computerfairi.es/media/rtpMBcvsbpnuqgviR8M

im girls

ugggggggggggGGGGGGhh

"i'm cute, i'm sad, i'm gay, i'm broken
i'm a lot of things
i'm a Nightmare
i'm lonely"

(the latter basically means please don't reblog my posts)

hi
i'm an autistic and mentally ill nameless trans girl
i am also a median? i wanted to talk from an aspect that i usually don't let myself as

i don't know what kind of things to say here, i'm not used to it. i want to talk about primarly personal things. and queer and cute stuff...? i don't know

i'm very shy and don't really know what am i doing

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i have exposure anxiety. i very much appreciate being talked to and listened, but i panic over extra public attention. please be mindful of that

please appreciate the fact that there's a Kirby enemy that is a ghost with sunglasses literally called "Cool Spook"

and it gives an unique ability that does nothing except light up two rooms in the only game it's in

hi im gay and also dont really exist

i'm tired and afraid of intrductions... i probably will post a proper one soon, but...
until then gay aliens will do
https://computerfairi.es/media/8tdREXTbX8YiwzSAolM