SparkyKitty @sparkymonkey@computerfairi.es

In hindsight it does seem like I was getting gaslighted but I don’t think that’s what they were trying to do. I think they were just ignorant at the time. They try to be aware of pronouns now but I don’t know if and when I’ll be comfortable telling them how I really am and feel. In college one my siblings expressed some pretty transphobic opinions to me which just made me bury myself more

My parents were not prepared or willing to deal with me pushing gender boundaries when I was growing up. They just kind of ignored it and made the fem clothes I managed to get disappear. I think they wanted me to think it was phase and without any close friends to talk to about what I was feeling it kinda worked. At least, that part of me got buried under a mountain of shame and confusion for 20 years

It was great growing up in the generation of both IRL stranger-danger and “the internet is a dangerous place for kids”. Like, great, who am I supposed to talk to exactly? The American fantasy of raising kids in the country is actually straight poisen for mental health

@tom Nice. Their phone department should take notes

Ok, broken wine glass + several pounds of dirty cat litter = torn garbage bag spilling trash all over the kitchen floor. Got it, not doing that again!

@GenderOfTheDay@hellsite.site this is my job’s gender 😐

#introductions I play with circuits for a living. I play videos games for fun. I don't usually have enough time for the latter. I've had to move a lot for work and don't have many close friends in meatspace. I struggle with social anxiety and making friends because I've been afraid of being myself most of my life. It's hard to make friends by "just being yourself" when you're not even being yourself to yourself. I'm tired of that game so here I am. Hi 😀