time to be hurt and useless for the rest of the week, rad

wish i wasn't ugly and i could actually get surgery in my lifetime instead of just watching everyone i know talk about getting it

or that i didn't sound male or that HRT actually did anything for me in like 10 years tbh

must be nice looking normal or being someone people want to be around or actually having the potential to get medical care after needing it for 20 years or having people care about the shit you're dealing with or

shouldn't even post this since nobody does or should care tbh

remember making a bet like 5 years ago like "i'll give myself 5 more years to make some progress before i do anything stupid" and now 5 years later i'm sitting here having made zero progress watching everyone talk about getting surgery or how much better their life is with it and just sitting here like "i should just shut up so i don't bring the luckier people's moods down"

probably just annoying people by posting about this to begin with