"we need you to do testing in order to keep prescribing this medication you need, here's three places that do it"

(they all have mostly 1-star ratings and abuse patients a lot)

cool

finally having adhd medication was really helping and i could finally actually function, why do i have to deal with all this shit now

i'm so tired

first place bumps me across 5 different people ending with "i'll transfer you to the person who handles that testing" and then sending me to a line that's been disconnected

second place says they're booked through march next year for this 30 minute standardized test i need

third place answers, goes "please hold" and the line has been silent for 10 minutes, then someone asks me what i want and halfway through the answer they transfer me to another line which is someone's voicemail

i give up

i'm tired and nothing works and i don't know how anyone else gets medical care when i've been stuck fighting this shit forever and i should just give up on trying to get help anymore

turns out all the surgery i need for transitioning is only for people luckier and more attractive than i am and i'm not going to get any medication i need to function normally either

this really hurts a lot and probably wont ever stop, either