yesterday i ended up breaking so bad i retreated from existence
just, shut down. i could "see" and "percieve", not feel nor think
i "narrated" what the one fronting wanted, i could hear her thoughts and "recorded" things, but i was not feeling nor thinking. i was "asleep"

it was a really weird experience in retrospect. i almost only remember it the way one remembers something that didn't happen, i wasn't there, i just have the memories of it