at this gathering, i said i didn't feel like i needed to be more charismatic more something else more some imagined me, and that usually when i go somewhere with cool people i feel that way, but this time i didn't
maybe because of being all indigenous folk, poc folk, because of all being weirdos, hermits, artists who knows
and my friend said when he saw me on the land he just was glad it was syr and i was there <3, didn't wish i was a different me or someone else