nsfw, genitalia, body stuff, dysphoria
i would be so much better off with a cock. the way i masturbate and fuck feels like its supposed to be there, almost like my body wishes it was. i have no problem with my external appearance and external stimulation (when done by me, cant really enjoy it from others yet due to over-stimulation issues) but as soon as it comes to internal stuff I get so uncomfortable.
nsfw, genitalia, body stuff, dysphoria
I wish it were all external. I wish it were easier for me to get off with other people instead of having to find weird specific ways to cum when they do things to me. I wish I never had to worry about having kids. I wish i could enjoy the sensations I'm supposed to without it being a huge struggle at best and impossible at worst.
nsfw, genitalia, body stuff, dysphoria, pregnancy mention (not kink)
i also still wouldnt want to be a boy or change my external appearance despite all this so its like???. in an ideal world id have both a dick and a vagina i think but the vagina wouldnt have any child-making functionality it would just be there in case I still wanted to give sex stuff using it a shot. idk what any of this truly means or says about me i'm just guessing in this bitch of a universe.
nsfw, genitalia, body stuff, dysphoria, surgery mention (also not kink related)
in theory i could get surgery to change these things but 1. i am mortified of surgery. i hate my body being altered in any way im terrified of being put under i just...cant do it nope. 2. im not sure if this is due to dysphoria or just because i have sensory issues that make things weird for me. maybe i actually wouldnt like having a dick and it would make things worse.