Ada~ @ADA_SIX@computerfairi.es

time to play project m

@devurandom@cybre.space Steve Burke of Gamer's Nexus

huge wave of depression just washed over me, don't know what to do except just ride it out

Oh, funnily, I can't even contact him at all. He's blocked me everywhere.
Oh well.

It fucking sucks. That was like, a 6505+ too. My dream amp for the longest time and I have to leave it behind. Maybe I can get an invective someday.

I think replacing my old tube amp with something comparable is gonna be just a no go. :/
I can't find anything reasonably priced that's local and I refuse to contact that bastard to get it back. Time to look into a modeler, I suppose.

@maple who the hell designed this crackhead OS

i want bangs

@devurandom@cybre.space I just wanna be K, like, the whole thing, as close of an approximation as I can get IRL

@maple they're very pretty

A little down and out rn, but not really upset
jus a little sad

@maple :o
Also
i love the design on those pants/leggings/whatever

groove metal section in *my* technical death metal song? it's more likely than you think.

and it's such SIMPLE SHIT to ask for, such fucking nonsense to get upset over like food. we can cover food! it's fine! but... i'm so used to being the burden, being a leech, being awful

why the fuck do i feel so empty
i should be happy, i should be ecstatic. no more abusers... nothing like that, and yet...
I'm reminded of them constantly
the behavior's been imprinted on me
why would i ask for what i want or complain when thousands of times in the past it's gotten me punished for no reason

i'm in too deep with everything
why couldn't i just live a sheltered happy life
i can't trade this away
i just want to be more confident in myself and healthy and you know fucking what? I don't get that, i never get that
this whole 19 years of my life has been one long string of catastrophes and disasters and i'm at fault for plenty of it

you ever just
get anxiety

ever forget to scroll up on mastodon

MIPS more like
DIPS

@Alyx hihi :D