my emotional/physical state tonight is as such: i'm exhausted and inexplicably want intimacy i can't put a name on and i'm hormonally depressed and upset to the point i could cry at a moments notice and i can't focus at all and i'm also enjoying this weird concoction of pineapple juice and bitter shandy and it feels like there are 5-10 feral rats inside my head all with different ideas of how to feel and what to do. there is space for maybe 1 rat at the controls at a time, they don't care
trying to remember other times in the past since i started HRT that i've felt like this and i think this isn't the first time, but i have no idea on the pattern, i'm gonna chalk this up to period and me being very weirdly affected by hormones