Love to have a dream where I finally have a top and just as we're halfway through getting ready for it I wake up and it's all gone and I have to remember that it's never going to be real

Listen, when I have an extremely vivid dream about being pampered and played with by a big woman with a purple jelly strapon and the dream ends with it in my mouth about to ride it, yeah I'm going to be jealous and cranky and yearning all day, what can you do

coming to the startling realisation based on the body type of said individual in my dream that the ideal body type of a domme/top i keep dreaming of is essentially femme rugby player, and realizing that perhaps growing up surrounded by female rugby players at the club our family frequented may have shaped my burgeoning sexuality.....