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CW: grim thoughts, pain
I don't really want to be dead, but with the pain i'm in i find myself wanting a level of unconsciousness deep enough that pain can't reach me, deeper than any sleep. something close to general anesthetic but every night, maybe more. i just need a respite from this pain
CW: grim thoughts, pain
I have an open wound that has not healed in over 500 days, more than a year and a half, I have been in so much pain that I want to curl up into a ball and cry until my lungs collapse, I lose so much sleep to the pain that I frequently have days where I wake up and I can't walk for half an hour because my head won't stop spinning and my eyes won't focus.
I don't want to die, but I need to not be in pain