CW: griping, genitalia
Sitting here seeing posts by other transfems who are talking about having had grs and just, being filled with hatred and loathing and jealousy knowing that I'm not even being seen by the NHS gender service yet let alone on the way to getting a grc or any kind of surgery. I'm barely diying my hormones with official GP support and it hurts to see just, joyful talk about something it feels like I'll never get
CW: griping, genitalia
I'm not a kind enough or gracious enough person to sit at the same table as transfems who've had grs, it feels like abandonment, assimilation into a privileged class, and I know that makes me a bad person but I don't have it in me to get over that jealousy