I could barely breathe last night it hurt so intensely

I think it’s important to mention that despite being kept up all night from the pain i didn’t ever feel any regret

And now I’ve had some Vicodin and I’m eating a real solid food breakfast with protein and fruit and I feel so much better

Oh jeez I guess not eating solid food for four days does a number on your maximum stomach capacity

Just took another walk and ordered a burg n fries c:

Only about two and a half more hours to discharge

Blessed be massage pillows

At gaia house with my partners and my cannabis, and I pooped!!!!!!! 🎉🎉🎉

Most satisfying shit I’ve ever taken c:

There could be a whole genre of fanfic where it’s like. Character A helps character B recover from vaginoplasty. That would be so cute

Today has been so easy compared to all of last week holy shit

Highly recommend cannabis PRN for pain control it works wonders and you can take as much as you need

It also makes you stoned, which is a welcome bonus c:

Another useful tip: get a cane for the first week out of the hospital

Complicated day today. Pain is generally down but at my appointment to get my packing and catheter removed I started bleeding after they both came out. So they put them /back IN/ which was incredibly painful and extremely frustrating (especially since catheters super squick me out conceptually). So I’m coming back Thursday to get those out again.

All that being said, I got to take my first real look at my results and holy fuck yall it’s literally perfect, I couldn’t have asked for a better aesthetic result

I’m willing to post pics but I don’t know if that’s something people want from this resource? Lmk I guess or I might post them eventually anyway as part of a healing timeline or something

at this point the pain is totally manageable. Barely even notice it if my attention is occupied at all. What’s really getting on my nerves is the itching

Slowly but surely weaning myself off my cane! it’s nice to get my strength back but if I stand for too long I start getting pretty bad pinching in my labia

The cane was kind of a look tho

Can’t wait to play guitar again

I threw up all of my stomach contents this morning and I bled a little on my pad in my sleep, but I’m otherwise feeling pretty positive! Gonna take a shower in a sec to wash the vomit off of me, I just wanna make sure my stomach feels ok first

Time for my second follow up with the surgeon, I’m pretty nervous

I’m dilating!! It feels great! Literally no pain and uh. I’m like. Comfortably full

Successfully peed without my catheter holy FUCK

Did my second dilation, had a teeny bit of blood but I’m not worried about it. Now I’m outside sitting in the garden of the recovery b&b and I feel so accomplished and peaceful c:

ughhhhhh I’m so constipated

I hate prune juice aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Having trouble getting my last inch of my dilator in and I’m freaking out a little h

Well. I have a call with the physicians assistant soon and I guess I’ll ask about what to do. Big nervous

On my way home now!

positive doemen

So I got a bidet for my apartment and I highly highly recommend it, this is very convenient (especially since it goes /everywhere/ when I pee from the swelling)

Also nice for cleaning up after dilating

I cant tell if I’m constipated? I think I am but it might also be just discomfort from dilating? But also I haven’t pooped in like two days, but also I haven’t eaten a whole lot? And like I can still pass gas so who knows?? I might just take a suppository tonight if I’m still having issues

Had a really positive, successful dilation session c:

So while I’m dilating 3x a day I’ve been doing it at 9, 3, and 9, and that seems to be working pretty well and it’s easy to remember

When I go up to 5x a day I’m planning to do 9, 12, 3, 6, and 9

Hurts less now to cough and sneeze and laugh!! I don’t feel like I’m gonna launch my clit across the room from the effort

guess who’s got two hooves and is now able to maintain a urine stream without it going everywhere 😎

Worried about depth again, I can’t get to the dot on my dilator that I’ve been able to reach consistently and I’m panicking a little

I’m feeling like, scared /of/ my vagina a lot of the time lately, today especially, and I’ve been exploring myself and it’s been helping but like, the foreign sensations and pain from sources I’m not used to inside of my body is frightening

And then I’m also scared /for/ it, since I’m having trouble getting to depth and my brainweird makes it hard for me to ask for help until I’m in a crisis

I guess I just have anxiety?? Wild

Also if I didn’t mention before dilating has started to hurt