FatMadiVersA @FatMadiVersA@computerfairi.es

@corimathildur Das kann ich sehr gut verstehen ich kriege das auch auf zu hören von wegen jeder Mensch kann doch arbeiten wenn er/sie nur will und das Grundsicherung ein absolutes Abstellgleis wäre und ich da schnell wieder raus müsste

@jessmahler no its a common myth that salt is bad but it for instance can help in summer to deal with your electrolytes of course there is an overdose but you can overdose any substance and it will harm you

@FatMadiVersA the shaared flat is for 7 ppl and on the outskirts of town but not far to more central places

Got invited to a private party on Saturday wich hasn’t happened for ages
It was really great although I knew only one person I felt super accepted I danced half the night and although there were cis men around I didn’t feel awkward
Also had nice conversations and then in the morning I found out that one person was looking for a new roommate I said I was interrested and told that I’m trans and disabled and they had no problem with that so they invited me to come there on Wednesday yaaaay

I just read that calling someone ableist for saying things like lame and moron is trivialising and babying actually disabled ppl and that they use such language all the time and that its normal my hair stands on end and my nails curl right now
I mean wtf??. Yes I know internalised ableism, I have that too but can’t people just admit it? Like saying it’s usually common but it’s internalised and we try to make it better

I started #loomknitting again this time the second legwarmer I don’t know wich yarn this is
But I really should stay at it I still have a sock yarn shawl a scarf with hjertegarn yarn and a hat for my beloved on the line of wips #knitting #yatn

@anna haha I wish only that was my problem I think I wouldn’t mind and certainly wouldn’t be so anxious as I’m now with newly diagnosed hearing difficulties

@hollyamory@mspsocial.net thanks i will look for resources thats a good idea I have have my partner who loves and Supports me wich I’m very grateful for

@nachdemsturm thanks alot yeah I hope that too

@FatMadiVersA in the beginning of December I heard completely good my partner makes jokes that I could hear a feather fall to the ground
I’m a musician I love sound I don’t know what I’d do if that was taken away from me
Even now I don’t hear when a note is out of tune unless it’s like a half tone
Wants to bang my head on the wall and scream but no I’m reasonable

I had noises and strange feelings in my ear and then it started on my left ear so I went to the doctor yesterday and she did some tests and said to me that I have a light hearing difficulty (dont know the word for Schwerhörigkeit) and it’s probably caused by the stress in my living situation wich I can only change when I can move into that new place
She also said it could get worse or stay the same they don’t know
This makes me so afraid and I feel so helpless

I came across this video it’s educating for multiples and allies https://youtu.be/pxr0rrsiYnI

@meena yes absolutely I hope I can find a hno doctor that is better when the fucking holidays are over and I don’t have to turn to hospitaals

@meena yeah that’s often soo hard the social worker who accompanied me to the hospital didn’t even know what to say and she’s not fat at least we ranted about this shitbag while we were driving home with the taxi

@FatMadiVersA I’m so done with all that and wish I could fast forward to February or March where I’m moving some where else but I don’t know if things will get better then I have been dealing with shit for years

Soooo due to a woman beating herself up constantly under my room and being verbally aggressive to me and my partner I have got acute Tinnitus I went to the hospital they won’t do anything and I told the social workers where I live its not ok and they don’t do anything either the doc in hospital just told me to loose weight

@TanteTija jao und sehr unsolidarisch weil sie Brücken zerschlagen dort wo Mensch sie bauen/pflegen sollte

What I liked about Munich
Nice landscape green city
Some foods
The streets and train station are better cared for
People being more chill
Things I like about living in Berlin
More opportunities for trans people to get help
Open queer community and a bigger variety on groups etc
More left wing shops collectives and house projects
Much more space for subculture and other cultures
The different foods you have access to here
This thing about not caring so much what you wear

I wish all who celebrate a happy #yule may you have a good time with less stress and love and warmth in your heart