FatMadiVersA @FatMadiVersA@computerfairi.es

Probably giving a small talk for a few minutes in Hamburg just depends if I can find somewhere safe to sleep hotel or hostel doesn’t work for me because I don’t feel safe there but probably somebody queer is going to offer me a space they are just asking around

@FatMadiVersA get labeled as an esoteric who doesn’t care about things like cultural appropriation but the Thing is I discussed this topic with a Tibetan monk who said as long as ppl are respectful abd willing to learn etc the most are happy to share I rather get angry when I see malas or other tools and symbols declared as jewelryy or decor

When I go to the local Buddhist I Centre I am sometimes afraid left wing aor feminist people who see me on the train wearing my mala could call ne out even though I know that it doesn’t matter what other people think and that I am not wearing it to make myself prettier but as ia tool for my mantra work and also it helps when I face anxiety for instance when the train is crammed I don’t want to pretend to be someone that I have the feeling that if you are interested in spirituality you get

Waking up in the morning feeling like two army’s fighting in my belly diarea nausea pain so I had to vall the doctor that’s not the Sunday I planned but atm it feels like everytime I plan things in my life life goes like „oh fuck it“ and everything is different at least turns out its nothing serious

Does anyone have playlists on Spotify or soundcloud I they can recommend I’m looking for new music also mixcloud shows are ok

Managed to meditate today finally after weeks of not practicing I feel it hellps sooooo much with my mental health I wonder why I forget so often or feel a kind of a resistance against it before I start #meditation #mentalhealth

Haha its so cliche since Halloween i got backpain thats called “Hexenschuss “ wich means witches shot now all I can do is lay in bed and take pain meds and I was planning on going to a talk I was waiting for since half a year

This is me. Ready for Halloween styled by my partner even though I wasn’t really going to a party or so just some food and playing games with people who live in other place for homeless people and people who work there but it was nice anyway and a good experience to be styled by a person that loves me and respect my gender identity #halloween #queermakeup

@FatMadiVersA this evening my Partner dissociated infront of a social worker the guy just suggested chilli and went away leaving me who has cptsd aswell with trying to bring him back afterwards he completely broke down and said he wanted to die i am so worried and we just dont find a place in Berlin

I live in a place for homeless ppl that are in a crisis on the paper they say no violence not even verbal but since months there are ppl screaming throwing things and misgenndering and attacking me and my partner verbally
When we go to the social worjers they say oh I will talk to that person but then nothing happens there is no apology. No further consequences the ppl can still live here pne woman even said out loud infront of witnesses that she doesn’t care about other ppl

Is there a way to see all the followers someone has not only on the own instaance?

Animes i like #akamegakill #yurionice #ohmygoddess #utena #deathnote #wolfsrain #milasuperstar Open for more Suggestions but they have to be English or german dubbed as i cannot read subtitles because I’m visually impaired

My day was shitty yesterday first ended up in a completely conservative cis couple who were looking for a room mate and had the feeling of being in the damm wrong film then overload in the c&a department store leaving a big heap of clothes on the floor and running out then at least me and my partner went to an Italian restaurant and I had spaghetti with mushrooms wich was delicious

#introduction hey im new to this site and to mastodon in general what should I say I’m 36 living in Germany and New in Berlin I am an agender femme trans and on t since last Monday I’m an artist musician activist with physical disability and cptsd and happy to connect to new ppl I like drawing loom knitting anime fantasy other cultures queerfeminism making music there’s just soooo much