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I know that unnecessary apologies are kind of an annoying thing of mine, but I do feel highly remorseful about how difficult it is for me to be social. I have a couple very small bubbles I can keep up with, and that's mostly it. And that makes me really unhappy, because I have a lot of friends, here and elsewhere, that I'd love to share more time with.
I have plans, to get better and do better. But keeping the positivity and progress is hard. I'm really trying.
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I'm still getting closer to getting the help I need to hopefully mitigate how difficult it is to function on a daily basis. My self-care and general performance is... Actually really bad.
My stream is honestly the best tool I have to connect with people, but like, I feel like my general state has been poor enough that my overall pleasantness to be around is... Not great. I'm already really bad at verbal communication, and an overall low mood only makes it worse.
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I've been a lot more negative about things than I ever wanted to slip back into, to be honest. I spend a lot of time just, not enjoying stuff, digging harshly into the low points and letting the good parts slip my mind.
To say it's been a general depression is a pretty big understatement of what a mess everything has been.
I want to do a lot more, get back to a happier mentality, move past the cynicism. Maybe explore my identity a bit more deeply. But it's not soon.
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@Facet can i hug the raccoon
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@Facet *huuuugs!*
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@Lenalia Thank you.
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@Lenalia I am grateful for your support.
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@Lenalia Yeah.