mh, ~+?
Today feels incredibly strange, like things are just slightly wrong or off somehow...
I think it's because ... people have been being so nice to me, and I almost feel ... happy? It's a feeling that's really alien to me, after being in such terrible situations for years and years...
but... it's made me feel almost slightly dissociative, like I've been watching everything that's happened to me this weekend from somewhere else, instead of actually experiencing it myself...
mh, ~+?
I always told myself growing up that if I expected I couldn't do something or that things would always go wrong, I would never be disappointed when they didn't go well, and be pleasantly surprised if they did...
though... now things have been bad for so long, and I'm so used to being treated badly, that .... any deviation feels surreal, like something that shouldn't have happened but did...
mh, ~+?
@Raspberryfloof You deserve to be treated with kindness and respect, and I'm glad you've been getting that
