My theory on why so many of us queers love the cosmic horror aesthetic so much is basically that we're all very used to feeling like the universe around us is illogical cold uncaring nonsense with made up rules and arcane ancient rituals.

"Why am I not allowed to kiss other girls?"
"Why is that activity something that only boys are allowed to do?"
We get vague answers like "Because that's how it's always beeeen!" and "It simply isn't done!!!", and fuck me if that doesn't sound like you're surrounded by an alien cult with rules that don't line up with actual reality. Only natural we start to see the universe that way.

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**Purranda the Black Cat** · Jun 19, 2019, 16:10

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V @V@lgbt.io · Jun 19, 2019, 16:10

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My favorite thing is how modern cosmic horror/Lovecraft-adjacent fiction is like, all incredibly queer.
Welcome to Night Vale, Fallen London, Archive 81, Madoka Magica, etc...
It seems like you can't ponder the possibility that we are specks among an infinitely larger, cold, uncaring cosmic community, until you get some cute girls to kiss first.
I just find it so hilarious because Lovecraft himself was The Worst Person™ and would have probably passed out at the fact that *we* are his most intimately engaged surviving fanbase.

**Purranda the Black Cat** · Oct 20, 2019, 17:27

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**Gwyn 😈** @lunalapin@slime.global · Oct 20, 2019, 17:27

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@fillertrack if you dont leave by midnight you will be trapped in Tim's Hole until the next time the Raptors win

**Purranda the Black Cat** · Oct 16, 2019, 16:56

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**Director Black** @DirectorBlack@octodon.social · Oct 16, 2019, 16:56

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it's time for the fact of the day:

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**Purranda the Black Cat** · Oct 15, 2019, 04:55

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**Gwyn 😈** @lunalapin@slime.global · Oct 15, 2019, 04:55

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is goofy the Stand of pluto?

**Purranda the Black Cat** · Oct 13, 2019, 09:55

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**📼 your moo-ma🔞** @fillertrack@slime.global · Oct 13, 2019, 09:55

Oct 13, 2019, 09:55

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Alternate universe where Marilyn Manson removed all his bones.

**Purranda the Black Cat** · Oct 13, 2019, 18:42

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**Gwyn 😈** @lunalapin@slime.global · Oct 13, 2019, 18:42

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hrt (+)

done two months of hrt as of today. best decision of my life.

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 09, 2019, 05:49

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 09, 2019, 05:49

Oct 09, 2019, 05:49

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this took too long

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**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 09, 2019, 00:12

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 09, 2019, 00:12

Oct 09, 2019, 00:12

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Therapy, positive

Oh. That's what it feels like to see a therapist who doesn't judge me... nice.

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 17:16

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 17:16

Oct 08, 2019, 17:16

Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

MH, negative, work, therapy, meds

Took a shower and now feeling more melancholy than panicked. Want to curl up in bed and never leave. Feel lonely and incapable of achieving happiness.

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**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:23

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:23

Oct 08, 2019, 16:23

Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

MH, negative, work, therapy, meds

Asked my boss if I could take the rest of the day and come tomorrow instead (my day off). He said yes (half shift).

I want to be well. I want to work like a normal person and not be so weak and fragile. I wish I was normal.

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**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:17

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:17

Oct 08, 2019, 16:17

Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

MH, negative, work, therapy, meds

Took my medicine and I want to go back to work but I feel so sad and panicky and I don't feel strong enough to do anything without breaking down. Considering asking if I can come tomorrow instead

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**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:08

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:08

Oct 08, 2019, 16:08

Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

MH, negative, work, therapy, meds

I'm so deeply sad and worried and my whole world feels like it's crumbling around me. I don't know what to do.

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**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:05

**Purranda the Black Cat** @Purranda@computerfairi.es · Oct 08, 2019, 16:05

Oct 08, 2019, 16:05

Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

MH, negative, work, therapy, meds

Missed my meds this morning and only realized at work when I felt panicky for no discernable reason. Boss let me go home to grab them and I'm on my way. I feel awful and I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have therapy this evening and I hope it helps. There's a knot in my chest that's festering and making me want to hide from the world.