Purranda the Black Cat @Purranda@computerfairi.es

this took too long

Oh. That's what it feels like to see a therapist who doesn't judge me... nice.

Took a shower and now feeling more melancholy than panicked. Want to curl up in bed and never leave. Feel lonely and incapable of achieving happiness.

Asked my boss if I could take the rest of the day and come tomorrow instead (my day off). He said yes (half shift).

I want to be well. I want to work like a normal person and not be so weak and fragile. I wish I was normal.

Took my medicine and I want to go back to work but I feel so sad and panicky and I don't feel strong enough to do anything without breaking down. Considering asking if I can come tomorrow instead

I'm so deeply sad and worried and my whole world feels like it's crumbling around me. I don't know what to do.

Missed my meds this morning and only realized at work when I felt panicky for no discernable reason. Boss let me go home to grab them and I'm on my way. I feel awful and I want to curl up in a ball and cry. I have therapy this evening and I hope it helps. There's a knot in my chest that's festering and making me want to hide from the world.

Feeling tired but loving how orange my hair is now 🎃

Different kinds of night creeps:
- Trashy bois
- Stinky bois
- Scremy bois
- other???

Pain is leaving but I'm still feeling gross. Doctor prescribed me another antibiotic on top of the one she prescribed before.

At the doctors waiting to be seen so we'll see what happens

Tattoo is most likely infected as I'm feeling hot/cold, and nauseated. Standing up or crouching hurts. Feeling achy and gross. Damn.