Aura 🏳️‍⚧️ @aura@computerfairi.es

Really looking forward to that most important of milestones next week: putting the HRT start date in my bio.

A lot about how I am now causes me problems. When I get hung up on it I focus on things about myself I feel grateful for. In the outfit in my last post, I'm thankful for my height. I’m 5’6”, which made me on the short side of average for a man, and the tall side of average for a woman. Heels don’t make me feel too tall!

Doubling down on what is bound to turn out to be my baby trans phase, I now have DMs with 2"+ heels and a swishy purple pinafore. I'm a UK 10, (US 6), but I've got a big ribcage on me. It's basically a cylinder. I'm not sucking in my tummy, that's just how I'm shaped!

Still not sure what to do about parents and step parents. Problem for another day.

This weekend I:
- Went en femme in public for the first time.
- Met up with a close friend and came out to him (clothes and makeup gave it away).
- Came out to my largest friendship group and a couple of smaller ones.

I pushed myself and it paid off. I’m so lucky to have such supportive friends.

Hard to believe it took me two years, four pints, and all my resolve to come out to my safest friend less than two months ago.

I bought some clothes! These are the first women's clothes I've bought, and I like them, even if the skirt isn't the right shape for me.

The coat was a great find. I got it cheap at a second hand store, and I love the style and fit.

I've always thought I'd look cute in a pinafore dress too. I'll be wearing it when I come out to a close friend tomorrow. Throwing myself in the deep end.

One step closer to HRT!

I managed to figure out how to send a compliment through Boots customer services. Her name and time was on the receipt, so it should be enough to reach her.

I hope she knows she made my day. I wore my biggest smile.

Milestone: bought makeup (concealer and foundation) for the first time. The lady in Boots was so lovely and helpful. Apparently my tone is “porcelain” because I’m so pale I’m basically blue.

Every year for the last 20 years my resolution has been some variation of “get better at Japanese”, with predictably disappointing results (I’ve improved, but the goal is always set too high).

This year I have the far more attainable resolution: “Grow tits”

I lost 2.5kg. Not a recommended method of weight loss.

I’ve been caught up in the delirium of the worst flu I’ve ever had since Wednesday. Did I miss anything good?

I feel shit and it's probably because Canada gave me fucking covid again.

It’s pretty cold. Let’s improve things by taking a transatlantic flight to Canada.

I've been quiet for a while. It's been a week. But! Nothing bad, really. Just a lot.

Ok so my mood took a tumble. This process is hard. I’m so glad I’ve got all this free testosterone so I can tough it out. Fuck.

Hey Siri, can you rewrite this thread in a way that means someone comes up to me with a pudding cup and says sorry?

That all said, I think I'm going to tell my brother. We rarely actually talk, but we're still somehow quite close and I think he'll be supportive.