and im trans and being trans makes me feel like shit??? surgeyr is so much money but i just want to look "Normal " lmao.

and i hate being so fucking sex repulsed because i cant stand even the faintest idea of myself in sexual sitauations because of my body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria.

my gf says lewd things sometimes and then profusely apologizes and makes it look/feel like ive kicked her in the fucking stomach.

i hate this. i hate it. i hate myself.