Grace is a bad name for me but it's my name anyway @grace_in_name_only@computerfairi.es

(also, and I prolly should have lead with this, but any online poker games/groups that kick out shitbags would be good too, so I could get more practice in. or software built to simulate strategy outcomes)

Thinking about trying to start small and get into #poker to try to play it to win. Any suggestions on how to find local RL poker communities? Or even online ones that might connect to something like that?

(I tried searching but it is a little more difficult to search for "poker" without getting porn than I had anticipated)

weird to get calls from family I haven't heard from in many years

but time is passing and so are family members sometimes and I suppose these are the little eulogies we tell in the little funerals we have in phone calls together

my family's weird, but my cousin almost felt like more of a peer.

maybe this is good. maybe.

(oh, and I have to figure out if they're fascists and/or racists and/or phishing me 😔 😒)

so is "cystate" a word for developing a cyst? if so, why so. if not, why not, and why did my doctor laugh at me asking the question?

feeling good feels good, as it turns out

an infinity of poetries whispered ever so gently between adults who share love, ephemeral words as the lay worship of simple affection, delivered between people in words that only those feeling love can even find

when compulsions aren't driving your whole life

you start to wonder what else has been behind the wheel

and, I suppose, what else *could* be behind the wheel someday ^_^

* fight with her life to be worthy

a knight errant lucky enough that she can fight with life to be worthy of such a woman's love

"So you're not disgusted with me? You forgive me?"

"Those aren't the same things," she murmured, sliding the magazine into the weapon. "I don't think you could ever disgust me. And I'm pretty sure forgiveness from me wouldn't mean shit."

if my options are "talk to people who don't know complicated words but also don't care about my human rights" or "talk to people who only speak in complicated words but also don't care about my human rights", then, like, I'd reject both? wouldn't you? how is that not a key factor in "should I socialize with these people"?

maybe some other people can speak with moderately complex words and consider me at least a half-person FFS

also silence is preferable to 99% of all humans anyway