thunderstorm crackle dream @hungrychangeling@computerfairi.es

figuring out what things to just start doing & what things i should really really really learn everything about first
or where you can just start
is my biggest cardinal energy tip

i just (e) biked to work for an entire week!

so happy & proud of myself

the fey are always borrowing & sometimes keeping my things

sometimes this is what happens when you tattoo 'stay lost'' onto your hands\

every item a possible gift

semi sick & strange this morning
i searched, realizing i may have left a beloved jacket at the retreat i was at
stuck at work before i can go home & search the garage for it

this type of thing, brings up messy feelings
like I'm proud of younger me, and I don't know if the me that i was would ever have wanted anything, being independent and able to take care of myself was vital and nourishing to every younger me but makes me wonder why

i listen to this parenting podcast as part of my thinking about parenting project
&
sometimes getting to hear how other families are, typical families is so deeply intense/upsetting
like parents talking about how they talk to their kids about hw, about food...about getting up?
like other kids weren't minding their own schedules and hw their whole schooling life?

i like it when words mean things

so far operation bike2work & avoid harassment in public that happens on the bus is a success

my co-worker was talking about not having her room mate to remind them to drink water & eat and i was like
there are apps for that
but then my mind blanked on the apps i use for that
any recommendations? #selfcare #reccomendations

about to try to play caves of qud for the first time!

i was asked to be a tarot card, from the minors, and at first I felt obviously the 4 of cups

then i realized that story about that card, about my loneliness

and instead said i wanted to be the six of cups

and now I'm in the work of, after two transformative times in the woods this month, of how to maintain connection and be able to meaningful relate to others in the regular grind, in this regular plane

"we are strong vulnerable authentic priestesses grounded in awareness and loving service" was my class's intention & ✨

back from the woods & from being of service
feeling so full & proud & excited about the person i'm becoming who is so confident, grounded, clear

about to go set up & host a sexual/sensual space in the woods for a week, & feeling all anxious

the new ferret we have when he wants to bite you while just kinda open his mouth and flop his body around while not really successfully grabbing you
like a weird little vampire

dropped my debit card down an elevator shaft while getting out the elevator while rushing to get back from my break
so

let's check in! #introductions

my name is syr, my pronouns are they/them & fae/faer, 26 year old #neurodivergent queer trans nb babe. a scrap of fabric caught in brambles during a thunderstorm.
my work is being a #archivist , librarian & memory keeper.
my practice involves lots of play! mess making! collage! feelings! wildness! sounds! textiles!
my relationships are #polyamorous non-hierarchical, committed, fun.
my space is for being silly, having typos, leaving memos and poetry for my self.

decided to read my card from all the folx who i was this artist intensive with &

feel so witnessed, lots of descriptions of me being glamorous, honest, a fairy, real.