Jenny H @lambdagrrl@computerfairi.es

your transition is over when the dysphoria starts to be outweighed by the existential terror

i feel like my whole life i am just stuck on input, and nothing i do will ever impact another person's life as much as the things they do impact mine

like, a massless particle in a gravitational field, bound to follow the whims of other entities but never able to have any influence

i feel like a ghost

yay the dissociation is back

wait, not yay

the other one

want to elaborate on this but actual words is energy

well i seem to have transitioned from debilitating dissociation and anhedonia to debilitating anxiety, woo

god damn i wish i was cis and straight and neurotypical and probably a bunch of other normative shit so i could relate to like 90% of people instead of 0.001% of them

i feel completely insignificant, like

i dunno, i decided to try to write for the people like me in the world and make them less lonely

but as far as i can tell there are about six people like me in this world and it's just made me more lonely

so that's a rousing fucking success

wait is it def tones or deft ones

so some friends of mine are on a podcast about trans stuff, this episode features trans people trying the kind of food cis people eat https://www.facebook.com/TheTandCakePodcast/posts/2204103946581185?__xts__[0]=68.ARAL99DvlekK37j7zeA3dL_pdxovUtxCaK16MI84yflQN987Z3xL4q3mT8q_N5QqUDi_Cl4zuPdC699Ryapp8nXRh5iDcQvEq8hrYdts6L3xqY0f4WC-79ekmF4IMgVaMkRGykCACq4lgdEB9qlIra0QP6GGS0Br2_ffyVV0bCJrFeIP8EPV8Is&__tn__=H-R

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghle

if I made e-book editions or print editions of my writing, would people be interested?

like I told myself I would post about it on birdsite and momsite when the book was done but now that it is the idea kind of terrifies me

and I'm torn between looking into doing a print run and just forgetting about it

kind of want to do more to promote my writing but otoh every new reader is a potential new hater yay

And with that, Practical Witchcraft for Outcast Teens is finished.

At least, book one is...

https://thunderandherbs.co.uk/prose/penny

Concrete demand: Doctors should do more than just give us fish: they must teach us to fish

I have 81 followers and I'll be surprised if any of them get that joke but I'm all about that niche content me

if you force a femme, does that make you strict?

I had a story idea a while back that was basically sissy smut that turns into trans self-discovery, maybe I should pick that back up