Jenny H @lambdagrrl@computerfairi.es

I keep reading "PSL" as "pissing self laughing" which I guess is a whole other kink

setting up an alternate toothbrush at @lambdagrrl@girlcock.club

not moving, just... diversifying; seeing what the grass is like on the other side

I'm making a research presentation in deep sea greens and blues and you can't fucking stop me

Tired: horny on main
Wired: horny on oder

What if I started a website with the expressed goal of being "fictionmania with better politics"?

wondering if i should make a mood playlist for my penny stories but i think it might just end up being 80% kermes

your transition is over when the dysphoria starts to be outweighed by the existential terror

i feel like my whole life i am just stuck on input, and nothing i do will ever impact another person's life as much as the things they do impact mine

like, a massless particle in a gravitational field, bound to follow the whims of other entities but never able to have any influence

i feel like a ghost

yay the dissociation is back

wait, not yay

the other one

want to elaborate on this but actual words is energy

well i seem to have transitioned from debilitating dissociation and anhedonia to debilitating anxiety, woo

god damn i wish i was cis and straight and neurotypical and probably a bunch of other normative shit so i could relate to like 90% of people instead of 0.001% of them

i feel completely insignificant, like

i dunno, i decided to try to write for the people like me in the world and make them less lonely

but as far as i can tell there are about six people like me in this world and it's just made me more lonely

so that's a rousing fucking success

wait is it def tones or deft ones

so some friends of mine are on a podcast about trans stuff, this episode features trans people trying the kind of food cis people eat https://www.facebook.com/TheTandCakePodcast/posts/2204103946581185?__xts__[0]=68.ARAL99DvlekK37j7zeA3dL_pdxovUtxCaK16MI84yflQN987Z3xL4q3mT8q_N5QqUDi_Cl4zuPdC699Ryapp8nXRh5iDcQvEq8hrYdts6L3xqY0f4WC-79ekmF4IMgVaMkRGykCACq4lgdEB9qlIra0QP6GGS0Br2_ffyVV0bCJrFeIP8EPV8Is&__tn__=H-R

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghle

if I made e-book editions or print editions of my writing, would people be interested?

like I told myself I would post about it on birdsite and momsite when the book was done but now that it is the idea kind of terrifies me

and I'm torn between looking into doing a print run and just forgetting about it