Mona Clark ⚧ @mona@computerfairi.es

This was interesting, especially when thinking about pluralism. I think @kara_dreamer would find it interesting too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfYbgdo8e-8

@mona there's a plant in Institute, WA that had an explosion in 2008 that *nearly* punctured a tank with 6.2 t of methyl isothiocyanate https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcfvzGtuamM

"The Exciting Chemistry of Tetraazidomethane", a paper full of deeply distrubing figures https://sci-hub.cc/http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1002/anie.200603960/epdf https://mastodon.social/media/O_X2j7KIWYt2gyZe994 https://mastodon.social/media/iPo8R79W9Mq6v2itzqo https://mastodon.social/media/lf4wxZx0NFyKDQK3uFQ

"In May 1924, eleven tons of phosgene escaped from a war surplus store in central Hamburg" WHERE DO I EVEN START
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phosgene#Chemical_warfare; see source excerpt below https://mastodon.social/media/dKVkMpRNUrKhXtbtymA https://mastodon.social/media/5IdE6s5Jg3UREIKyxtM

So I can sort of see Flowey now as someone who could have been an endpoint for me--a bitter, self-hating "male" who went around convinced that he was the bee's knees because he and only he truly grasped how disgusting we all are. That could have been me. That could have been [Deadname]. But Chara wanted more...they wanted to be happy. I want to be happy. I want to smile in the face of defeat, because then at least I'll be smiling.

And that's kinda Flowey's thing, isn't it? You know how some people (white cis male atheists tend to fall into this trap) when they get disillusioned with a thing (a religion, a philosophy, even just a movie or a game), they go totally _apeshit_ in _insisting_ that nobody gets to enjoy it either? That's Flowey. They fucked up, experienced pain, and that "proved" to them that life is pain and they're the only guy smart enough to realize that. and if he has to, he'll inflict the pain himself...because that's what happens if you pride yourself on accepting that life is pain but none of your friends do. You start hurting them.

I had to pause the stream after finishing up with Asriel. I don't think anyone was actually listening when I broke down...but I've got a recording *wry smile*

Speaking with Asriel felt like...speaking to my pre-transition self. He tried so hard, [Deadname] did. Nothing made sense to him but he tried so fucking hard to _make_ it make sense. He didn't do the best job, and he hurt some people, just like Asriel / Flowey hurt people. And when I finally woke up...[Deadname] realized it was time to step aside. He didn't stick around like Flowey, trying to _prove_ there's no point in being happy, responding to misery with misery.

how much farther along would we be right now if that brainpower and those labor hours were invested in LITERALLY ANYTHING other than 'how can we make more money from this'

Trying to do 15 reactions this afternoon. Next step: Measure our reagents into each and every one of these.

I would stream this, but since we got new grad students there are a few too many people around.

#chem #chemist #chemistry #realtimechem #work #lanthanide #coordinationpolymer

That's it everyone, ditch Discord, back to IRC!

If you need a hug, take one. HUG. https://witches.town/media/OWgcGjs6WvmwPvBZ2Hs

since i didn't say, i'm currently working on this here http://www.affordableseattle.net/ which i urge all Seattleites to visit.

above and beyond legislative and electoral efforts, if we really get a good response from folks, we'd love to help build solid tenant organizations and get some fuckin' _rent strikes_ up in here.

down with the rentier class, housing is a human right!

wanted: a commission of @mona in female!Mettaton mode, planting her stiletto heel on my chest as she prepares to "instruct" me

PS: if you're frustrated by all the pineapple talk, you can filter "regular expressions" (regex) out of your home TL by clicking the Home TL's settings, and adding to "Filter out by regular expressions" https://kitty.town/media/ij9LBxu-bbpkWsI2v6s https://kitty.town/media/NgvGt16x-j7TVwo1_yc

https://witches.town/media/Uu-mxIWQYE3YCnOt82E

Gonna print this out and carry it with me to the gym.

@mona NAH