my life scares me. i have to do so many things
the scariest is that i have to find a new apartment. accessible one. and it's such a huge thing. and i don't even know how to anything
maybe i should start with a list
what if the new apartment is small and the cats will be unhappy. but i know it's not important. i will just give them many shelves for climbing and places to hide. they will be happy even in small apartment. but i feel bad anyway
fuck now for some reason the email is gone that had important information in it and i die
why do bad things happen to me
it's just GONE
i don't think i actually need the thing that is gone. today i've got more of a grip on things.
now my heart beats fast. this is scary