lian @slooploon@computerfairi.es

@lila@octodon.social menschen sind so schlimm :((

i used to be so scared of falling over backwards in my chair, but now this has happened twice in 2 weeks and it's really not so bad. it's more like, ah, hello knees, yes come give me a kiss, okay let's get out of this thing

@cassolotl@cybre.space yeah i mean i don't know the person, they might themselves have a disability that made them not see me or not react properly to seeing me, it was just a really surreal thing

some random person tripped over me. i mean i was sitting in my wheelchair and they were coming straight at me and just... kept walking, tipping me over and landing on top of me.

now i have a swollen ankle.

that was a weird experience.

@Assmilk@mastodon.social
a) i'm allergic to tobacco
b) i'm allergic to cannabis
c) i'm allergic to smoke
d) i hate smoking
e) i have no spoons for the hassle of buying sth illegal
f) it doesn't help with the pain
g) all it does is make me tired and even less able to get stuff done
h) it's expensive
i) i don't like the effects
j) i hate the smell
k) why do i have to justify myself?

@cassolotl@cybre.space here! http://cs.stanford.edu/people/karpathy/namesGenUnique.txt

@cassolotl@cybre.space i always use this list of neural network generated names lol

somewhere on the top 10 of things that bother me most is people who know nothing about my illnesses or my person giving me advice on how to handle symptoms.

"try this medication!"
no it doesn't work and also i'm allergic

"try this sport!"
no i have chronic pain and also my current nutrition means i can't really do sports

"try this easy remedy!"
no i'm autistic and also too disabled to do that and i hate it

"try-"
just shut up please

with daily entries, most of my entries are just remixes of unfinished tasks from the days before, it's tedious and useless

i think i will change my bulletjournal system from daily entries to a weekly entry with optional additional entries for busy days

@Assmilk@mastodon.social no

i had to leave early, i just hope the people stopped being so annoying, but when i left he was doing sorta ok again so i think it might be ok

today was stressful. a friend had a public meltdown and there were all the people treating him incorrectly and i am just annoyed by people in general :/

@Assmilk@mastodon.social by having a doctor prescribe me a wheelchair & convincing the insurance that i need one.

but if you're asking why i'm using a wheelchair, that's because i have chronic pain in all my joints and walking is very painful

@Assmilk@mastodon.social i'm not "in a wc" i'm a wheelchair user. i've had it since december, but i can't take it into my apartment so i can't really move around very well in my apartment

@Assmilk@mastodon.social are you also a wheelchair user?

for now i'll just go back to bed. being awake is overrated.

i feel so hopeless. will i ever get an apartment in which i can actually move around? who knows.