lian @slooploon@computerfairi.es

i hyperfocussed on a book. it's a good book and i almost finished it in only 1 day (yay me) but it's also triggering as hell and i feel like it was a huge mistake, especially with the hyperfocus, because now i can't get my thoughts off it

one of these days i'll just chop off my hands above the wrist, i'm in so much pain

@noelle the thing that helped me best was bulletjournal. i have a table of daily tasks in it too & other changes. can give you more detail if you're interested.
also, i started antidepressants, that was a huge help as well

@noelle ah i see. are you interested in ideas that are not apps? i'm not so much an app person

@noelle do you know habitica?

my wrists are killing meeee

i'm 1 step closer to getting a new wheelchair. still got a lot of hassle ahead of me, but i have hope

i don't think i actually need the thing that is gone. today i've got more of a grip on things.

it's just GONE

why do bad things happen to me

fuck now for some reason the email is gone that had important information in it and i die

what if the new apartment is small and the cats will be unhappy. but i know it's not important. i will just give them many shelves for climbing and places to hide. they will be happy even in small apartment. but i feel bad anyway

now my heart beats fast. this is scary

yes i will make a list now.

maybe i should start with a list

the scariest is that i have to find a new apartment. accessible one. and it's such a huge thing. and i don't even know how to anything

@maunzikation <3

my life scares me. i have to do so many things