Harp the Wigglytuff @wigglytuffitout@computerfairi.es

there's only so many times you can realize you're most of the way to having natural drill curls before you just accept that it's destiny and order some motherfuckin tiaras

me, gazing at this one curl i have that always wants to be perfectly formed:

i didn't choose the hime life.......... the hime life chose me

objects that exist in liminal space, prone to sliding out of reality:

-chapsticks

-the other sock in a pair

-nail clippers/nail files

-the lipstick that you really want to wear today but has fucked off into the lands hidden at the bottom of your purse and may return someday, laden with gold and spices, if you hold hope steadfast in your heart

-top of a tupperware container

i'm basically trying to start some sort of cult at this point where we recruit others to come wear pretty dresses, and i'm fine with it

...

alternatively, i just described #lolitafashion sooo,

"builder of the damned" sounds like a potentially cool title if you entirely ignore the context in which i created it just now

honestly, why screenshot dunk when you can just subtoot and vague, like *civilized* people 🧐

which one of these will be the reason i eventually get Cancelled(tm) online? who knows! but i'm sure the more years i putter around, it's going to just be inevitable

-cishet
-white
-mildly kinky
-religious
-tend to vote democrat in elections
-disabled, invisibly so
-enjoy lolita fashion (as a break from being a sexualized object/wearing what i wanna wear)
-order pretty purses from aliexpress sometimes
-am not vegetarian or vegan
-cool with real fur n' animal bits
-emphatically pro medical animal testing

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

right, right, i should go actually take a shower instead of just glowering and being cynical.

even though it means i have to move my sleeping dog. :[

ah yes, my shoulder's beautiful songs of CRUNCH SNAP POP CRUNCH

for a brief second i forgot SheRa was named SheRa and mixed it up with YoRha from nier and just sort of accepted the she-ra characters all "ambitious crossover, but it could work"

one of these days i should actually grub around up in the backups, find if we have a working zip disc reader (any of y'all remember those??? and them being a thing for like 5 fuckin minutes???? laserdiscs of the pc world lmfao), and go through my old backups

i bet that there's at least one vickimouse 'mouse house' in there, and there might be some old petz too

okay actually it wasn't just neopets it was more...

do any of y'all also remember Vickimouse Adoptables? possibly vikimouse, i can't remember how the name was spelled

little pixel mice anthros (or other animals), and part of "adopting" was that you went to browse through all of the pixel art that you could use to "build a house" for them

it used to be such a big thing but it's as if it's vanished, i can barely find traces of it existing but it was a huge part of my childhood

honestly the last time i felt like i knew computer science type shit and web design was when i was able to hand-code a simple webpage in notepad with all my knowledge gained from making neopets webpages.

and i'm pretty content with that being the zenith of my cs career

my computer in benchmark rated a "high"

but i'm proud because it was processing it as a desktop, at the largest resolution, when it's actually a laptop i'm running at lower rez lmao

THAT'LL DO, EDI. THAT'LL DO. yes my computer's name is EDI don't judge

in the words of Carrie Fisher, drowned in moonlight, strangled by her own bra -

be afraid, but do it anyway.

but also honestly i've seen a lot of people who cloak themselves in irony, in jokes, in shitposts, and then in the rare moments of sincerity talk about how they feel disconnected, unsatisfied, and lonely - and exhausted because they feel like they must be "on stage" doing their bit to be loved.

humor is sometimes a way to feel safe. but you can sometimes be, in essence, too safe.

opening yourself up and being vulnerable is fucking terrifying.

but it's also worth doing.

so yeah, if you feel like you have to cw for being sincere, i would say (in all my armchair fuckin quarterback glory) that maybe it's time to take a step back, recalibrate, and examine how you're doing. sincerity is how we connect with others on a fundamental level. sincerity is recognizing your gestalt whole, not just one aspect of yourself - the Jokes, for example - connecting to someone else's one aspect.

and yeah, i struggle with this shit, too.