night terrors, personal, mh related? NIT Spoilery? 

...shit I just realised something. I used to have night terrors a lot when I was a kid. One in particular I'm still unable to be free of the memory of, is one where deep underground there is some kind of eldrich monstrosity, a beating pulsating "heart" for want of a better word, worshipped by some kind of shadowy cult. I remember being forced to go to it, and being unable to turn away as I reach out to it against my own will.

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I just remember screaming, not just mine but hundreds of others, like the world itself was tearing itself apartand that this thing was the cause of it, and I was ... I dunno a sacrifice? the cause of it?? trying to stop it but failing?? It was never clear but I just remember this unending, rising dread, knowing it was coming but being unable to stop it or wake up.

The Black Goat and its cult in NITW is... eerily similar...

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I mean like this is a night terror I had, repeatedly, the same dream and same scenario, since when I was like, 6 years old and stuff. I had it way up until my teens, though I haven't had that nightmare in a while mercifully. I think I had one reoccurance when I was like... 20 something? Living with some friends. Night terrors are awful.

But yeah.

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