gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +?
Me: geez, all the masculine things about my body make me feel awful. When people refer to me as male it feels wrong somehow??
Friends: it's dysphoria
Evidence: *all pointing to a sign saying "Dysphoria, plus you may be trans"*
My brain: shit, I'm rumbled. }:/
Me: nah, surely not. I can't possibly not want to be at all masculine in any way and ohhhhhhhhh.... Fuck.
gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +?, some awful themes now
Me, later still: fuck what do I do now am I not trans am I fake am I just a pervert oh god
The fediverse: hey let's celebrate nb and agender folks as well because they're just as valid!
My brain, spitting out it's drink in shock: what?!
Me: *genuinely curious and intrigued* hello I would like to subscribe to this newsletter
Brain: FUCK D:{
gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +, definitely now
The long and short of this is that this is not the exact sequence of events, but basically I'm not certain "girl" fits either?? But the more I think about it, the more being a femme leaning agender/nb fits me, and the happier I am with it... I'll never pass as a girl probably, but... I dunno if I want to? Though it definitely want to be less masculine looking. So, thank you everyone for helping me get here :) <3
gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +, definitely now
@Nine How do you and your brain react to me wanting to hug you?
I don't really have much to say but I'm glad you're happy now. :3
gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +, definitely now
@BatElite
Very well because hugs are always welcome and reciprocated *snugs* ^^
gender feels, personal, a little silly but still serious. +?
Later~
Me: Welp, guess I'm a girl! I should really go forward with this and .. uh... Hmm...
Something.... Isn't right...
Brain: *trying to remain inconspicuous while dumping a huge vat of Dysphoria into my psyche*
Me: the fuck are you doing?!
My bastard of a Brain: the girl thing was a. DISTRACTION. }8^y I HAVE THE HAPPINESS *drives into a metaphorical lake*