In one of those moods again where I feel like there's nowhere in today's social world where I belong, and no matter how many years I spend trying I'm not making any progress at constructing such a place for myself, like people insist I should be able to do without help (or get upset with me for "not trying enough").

It certainly doesn't help that most people I meet that I can really relate to disappear from my life shortly after meeting them, with seemingly nothing I can do to make that stop.