My emotional dumping this morning (thanks to everyone who answered and shared advice! ) has really solidified my belief that not being fully out is the source of a major chunk of my distress at this time.

It's going to take a little while to properly set up this conversation with my family, but I feel like I need to prove to myself that I'm not just going to delay these difficult conversations anymore.

It's time to tell my closest comedy friends. The ones I'm afraid to lose.

It's done. We will see what they say.

Mixed bag so far. The outcome I'm most fearful of is still on the table and starting to look more likely. But I'm still glad I did it and will be even if the worst comes to pass.