Diary of an ASD Squirrel. Day 229 , Thursday 13/06/2024
A better nights sleep last nigh, although I did wake up early, had a nice chat with CDP 🧚♀️.
Mrs S. was in the office today & I really wasn’t feeling it this morning ,so after breakfast I went back to bed for a couple of hours.
My brain drove me out of bed just after 9am, unless I’m really quite poorly I cannot stay in bed for too long.
So I was reflecting on the meeting with the Social Prescriber yesterday & subsequent conversations with friends on here.
I wonder if I NEED to be more social than I am now. I wonder if the benefits outweigh the stress / anxiety etc. of being in a group of people.
Also the fact that any decent support is a decent distance away. (thanks UK Gov - so much for the promised improvement in MH services NOT !)
I am social to an extent, I regularly chat , laugh ,cry etc with so many lovely folk on here. Yes it is a relationship in a digital environment, but does that make it any less valid an experience?
The Fediverse is unlike any other Social Platform, it is possible to develop real friendships here & the lack of an algorithm makes for a more interactive experience!
Honestly I don’t know, when actually confronted with the help available, if it is worth pursuing.
On a more positive note I had a great banter session with several of the Peeps on here this afternoon / evening , thanks to all who participated, I enjoyed it enormously! 😊
Final Thoughts.
I never expect that I was fighting for so little, it is quite the anti-climax.
I am glad I got my diagnosis, that has helped me understand myself in ways I did not expect, & almost every day I learn something new.
Apart from anything else I found a whole group of Peeps who relate to & share experiences & challenges unique to ND folk!
Thank you to all those who are helping me on this journey, in a myriad different ways. I am thankful to each & every one of you! 🫂 🫶🐿️🖖
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@Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic I have consistently found that in person people are not worth the stress. Whether it's because I suck at real time interactions because of delayed processing or something else I don't know, but every time I try I am reminded of why I avoid in person people. I would say most experiences for me have led to additional trauma.
I think there's something to be said for the "right" people, but for me the right people seem to only exist online.
Online lets you walk away and come back to it, later, when you've got a different perspective. Online lets you edit and rewrite until what you're putting out is exactly what you mean.
Real life can't be edited, and there's no pause button.
@ScottSoCal @alexisbushnell @actuallyautistic Hey 👋😊
Exactly ! !
@ScottSoCal
Also lacks the ^Z after saying something stupid or obnoxious...
@alexisbushnell @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic
@cvwillegen @ScottSoCal @alexisbushnell @actuallyautistic Aye , you can’t swear at someone then delete it !
@ScottSoCal @Tim_McTuffty @actuallyautistic yes! So much this. And I can process stuff in my own time so I know what's being said, what I'm agreeing to, etc.