this isn't even an after dark account but holy fuck cumming just feels mind-blowingly amazing. It's weird feeling ace and still having such an inwardly active sex drive. I'm really uncertain on that whole identity thing though; it's possible I just have such intense performance and initiation/intimacy anxiety that I've just convinced myself I'm ace out of my own inability to be intimate with others.
Asexual struggles, sex related.
@esunabun I know similar feelings all too well: I also have an annoyingly high libido despite being almost entirely asexual. Just know that having a libido is not the same as experiencing specific sexual attraction; nor is having arousal in response to things previously associated with orgasms the same as sexual attraction.
Feel free to DM me if you want to talk more personally about ace-related stuff.
