oh hey I have an account here
I can say the swears without worrying about future employers putting me on their naughty list
Y'all the future is shit I'm legit worried about not getting a job because some corporate fuckstick finds my Twitter account

Spam-ass motherfucker miss me with that shit

i was doing so good yesterday now it's like my soul is on fire

Made a bunch of depressing tweets that I should have made over here instead.

Work is going to make me have a fucking stroke holy shit

This took a turn for the depressing. tl;dr orgasms are good but meatspace body is terrible.

I know there's that saying that you're just not your type, and I get it, and acknowledge that it's a good sentiment to live by, but that doesn't just wave away all the hate and disgust I feel for myself. You can't undo what's been done to make me who I am with just words; it takes constant vigilance and the kind of energy that I desperately wish I had.

like I hate to say it but I'm actually so repulsed by my body. I spent 1200$ on laser hair removal over 8 sessions which took 8 months and it's all but grown back already. There's so much about my own body that I can't stand; it's hard to imagine being intimate with someone and subjecting them to this body that I loathe.

this isn't even an after dark account but holy fuck cumming just feels mind-blowingly amazing. It's weird feeling ace and still having such an inwardly active sex drive. I'm really uncertain on that whole identity thing though; it's possible I just have such intense performance and initiation/intimacy anxiety that I've just convinced myself I'm ace out of my own inability to be intimate with others.

They're poised to save 5,000$ a month on airport licensing fees, but once they lose the flight crew contracts and countless other formally loyal patrons as a direct result of destroying their drivers' livelihoods, their numbers are going to tank and upper management will lose their jobs. I can't fucking wait to watch the corporate equivalent of black mold get purged from the company.

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Largely I can't wait to watch this company hemorrhage money in upper management's ill-concieved attempt to save money at the cost of customer experience and bottom-level employee's livelihood

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The fact of the matter stands that it's a faceless corporation that has screwed myself and the other drivers (some of whom have no other aspirations; this is literally their lifetime career and they're seeing massive pay cuts from the service change after working for the company for 20+ years); I'm going to enjoy watching them quit after the company pays for their CDL testing (only because the company can't force us to do training to keep our jobs and force us to pay for it as well)

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I say all this because I've been down on myself a lot about being bitter and miserable, but the fact of the matter is I'm constantly pushing myself to better my situation. I hate vehicle maintenance and I was able to learn more than I ever wanted to know just to pass my CDL exam; it's something I didn't want to do with every fiber of my being, but I still got through it. Keeping that in mind, I can only imagine what I can accomplish of the things I actually *want* to do.

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I've been worried about how angry I've been getting at work, but the reality is that I'm not just uselessly raging; I've been training other drivers and trying to fix tech issues with the radios, and collaborating with management to fix long-standing issues. It may be becoming a shittier job every day, but I've been working hard to forestall that inevitability.

Don't feel comfortable saying that on Twitter because even though i have 70 layers of abstraction between anything professional and that account their hell algorithm would still probably find a way to fuck me for saying it.

i don't wanna post too much negative stuff here but i can honestly say that at this point walking out on my job would be counted as self-care.

for those of you just seeing this account, i was g3thazey on twitter until a couple hours ago

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