"The worst they can do is say no" Ain't that a crock of shit. Oh, yeah, sure, they'll only say no. But no fucking hurts. I'd compare it to a punch to the gut, but I've punched myself there enough to be able to tell you what I'd fuckin' prefer, and guess what? It ain't being told no.
I need to fuckin' let it go. The more rational part of me knows nothing was meant by it. But gods fucking damn it. It's so damn hard when all I can do is keep coming back to it.