I know the edgelords (edgeladies? edge-enbies?) are gonna hate this, but you *need* people in your life
not just phone calls, not just twitch streamers, physical people that you care about enough to hug (d-bag relatives/EX's & such don't count)
tl;dr a long time friend of mine got stuck at the near by airport and is staying with me for a few days
I still have GI issues and bills to pay etc, but I feel *so much better* mentally that someone else is here 💖