longpost, anxiety ??
Also in the interest of transparency: I’ve been really struggling mentally with shifting to a new space like this. I have trouble building new habits (including using the CW system; I’ve been very anxious about when i should use it or not, even when provided guidelines), I’m anxious about rocking the boat or messing up or committing faux pas’s. So, please lmk if i do fuck up, I wanna try not to.
longpost, anxiety ??
And I’ve been venting about it on twitter actually, because frankly posting there falls under the mental threshold of the very little amount of energy I’m able to expend on posting anything anywhere ever most of the time... I’m trying to build habits here that work with my brain but it’s been tough going so far.
longpost, anxiety ??
@poss_bot I have this problem a lot tbh, but in more... open? spaces. I think I am a lil more confident because I got on masto a while back (this is a new acct tho) but tbh twitter is way worse for fear of someone I know attacking or a pile-on happening
if someone has a criticism here, it's more like "hey fyi for the future" than "You Are Canceled Forever". it HAS taken me a lot of personal work to not feel like every mistake is You Have Died and I'm super empathetic to it 💖
longpost, anxiety ??
@heytanuki re: pile ons: i actually deal with this on twitter by way of a vent account, which is where this kind of thing normally goes. It’s where i can turn off my vigilance and just braindump. I don’t have that here yet