tanuki~ @heytanuki@computerfairi.es

hecccc yeeeaaaaahhhh

ooooomf. the past month took more out of me physically/socially/psychologically than i expected, and i haven't been recovering right, i've been stressing about everything.

hey tanuki: realize that the stress you feel is a product of your social/physical exhaustion, stop trying to do things, chill. no plans. no 12-hour workdays if you can help it.

hey everyone else: daaaaang i finally beat Dead Cells (first ending???) woo

I"M HOME. AAAAAAAAAAA

I'm trying to just get to a point with my parents where I can say anything and like

my dad keeps talking over everyone and it's real hard to get a thought in without him talking about himself. hahahaha

I give myself permission to not do this today. to not do it tomorrow. I give myself permission to wait until i feel like I'm comfortable and they will listen. I give myself permission to not do it at all.

but

I turned on "autoplay gifs" and masto is 300% more magical now =O

I'm amidst travel again and my life doesn't quiet down til Tuesday aaaaaa

huuuge huge hugs and thankyous to @chuxen@queer.party again, and to everyone appreciating this tiny blinky tanuki!!

everyone knows my pronouns ahhhhhh! 💖💜💛💖

look I just re-reblorped it because it's very important uwu 😸💖💕💓💜💙💛💚💞💝

anyway this got me thinking about "i With A Star" or "i With A Heart" because it would be really good

like also what about "i With A Fox Face"

Petition To Add Lower Case "i" With A Star For The Dot To Unicode

did Marquee Moon get popular all of a sudden? like I've been standing under a speaker for for the full 10 minutes at a restaurant so I can groove to it. it's the second time in a month I've heard it out somewhere

like it's real good

but now??? it's 41 years old?

appointment was great, with my therapist basically facilitating a space where we could really share some feelings. and we did til we felt stopping. we were exhausted after,

all these little plastic fences i put around my life get melted down again and again. who's rebuilding them? my brain

i like to talk about my brain like it's an independent thing because it's not a bastion of reason and intelligence, it's a reactionary organ of misguided overprotection

i'm also reading Drop-Out (BIG HUGE CW FOR suicidal themes and childhood trauma http://drop-out.webcomic.ws)

and it is amazingly good, the author/artist is amazing and i don't know who they are. the expressions. the fact that one of the characters can have two different expressions at the same time is is is is is

it

aaaaaaa

bringing my partner to my gender therapist session tonight. we're on the same page about HRT, but she has concerns that she wants to talk through. and i want her to talk through! and we will have a voice of experience there. nothing about this isn't positive and Good

and i can do this, i know i can do this, but wow i have the biggest anxiety for literally no reason right now

aaaaaaa reducing all my patreon contribs to $1, i want to keep going but i'll bump them back up when The Money Situation improves =n=