anxiiiettyyyy, hrt (-)
bringing my partner to my gender therapist session tonight. we're on the same page about HRT, but she has concerns that she wants to talk through. and i want her to talk through! and we will have a voice of experience there. nothing about this isn't positive and Good
and i can do this, i know i can do this, but wow i have the biggest anxiety for literally no reason right now
hrt, internal struggle (+) followup
appointment was great, with my therapist basically facilitating a space where we could really share some feelings. and we did til we felt stopping. we were exhausted after,
all these little plastic fences i put around my life get melted down again and again. who's rebuilding them? my brain
i like to talk about my brain like it's an independent thing because it's not a bastion of reason and intelligence, it's a reactionary organ of misguided overprotection
hrt, internal struggle (+) followup
@heytanuki I talk about my brain as a separate entity too because it so often does stuff beyond my control!
And I'm proud of you! These are big steps. I know as I work through big steps there's a lot of feelings as the dams break and the stuff I've been holding back comes out. Its a normal sensation to have. Sending love and hugs.