I'm trying to just get to a point with my parents where I can say anything and like
my dad keeps talking over everyone and it's real hard to get a thought in without him talking about himself. hahahaha
I give myself permission to not do this today. to not do it tomorrow. I give myself permission to wait until i feel like I'm comfortable and they will listen. I give myself permission to not do it at all.
for the first time since I moved out, I actually want to have a relationship with them. they're genuinely interesting, if maladapted, and something about that informs who I am. and I want to know what I missed.