Well, I hope you're happy.

You've been spending all your time doing your best despite a mind a body lacking a manual, a society that's largely indifferent to whether even your basic needs are met, and (statistically) repeated traumatic experiences. And maybe discrimination for something that shouldn't reflect badly on you, or flat denial of your lived experience which is categorically real and valid.

After all that, you deserve happiness. It's OK if you haven't found it yet, but I hope you do.