Oh no, uni tomorrow. I don't really _have_ to go, but… I probably should… but I also don't want to, because I'm way behind in that class and it's like… 3 hours of somewhat instructed coding with someone occasionally standing behind you and watching you and saying ~~helpful~~ stuff like "du musst dich nur trauen!" ( i have no idea how to translate it, it's supposed to mean something like "you simply need to get over yourself and tryy to do it!"
which is… never a helpful thing to say… but especially bizarre when you're simply too tired to wrap your head around the problem… and ironically i'm actually scared of this class since that comment)
So I think… I'll go if my mood is like at 85% super sunny bright rainbow ponies, and my self esteem at I'm Invincible, and otherwise I'll just stay at home and try to catch up and be sad and annoyed that I'm too smol to go to class? Which is still better than feeling like I'm 17 and close to crying in high school maths class.
Okay who am I kidding I cried through literally all of high school but STILL it's about the FEELING
