ok, the sund has disappeared, now there are… clouds
I'm still trying to go outside but it's not really happening
hmmm now I'm tired
do I really want to go outside
I mean what are the benefits
there are people there
I think I'll just stay in my bed
hmmm ok I'll try
I prepared for this moment for 3 hours
it will probably be terrible but
okay I was disappointed for about 5 seconds, but I'm trying really hard to find reasons not to leave my bed
last time I went outside I saw a cat, but it ran away instead of getting to know me, which is always okay of course, but still a rejection that I had to deal with emotionally