Getting a new binder, always
2 Weeks of shipping
30 seconds of excitement
1 long moment of "this is not MUCH larger than my old one, hope I don't damage it trying to get it on"
20 minutes of "feels… unbearably tight but that has to be expected. Still, I should have ordered the larger size EVEN THOUGH I'M RIGHT AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS SIZE, MEASUREMENT-WISE"
2 minutes of "yes exchanging it would mean really high postage and waiting like a month but maybe I should… naaaah"
a lifetime of regret
weight talk
and this is like the 3rd time this exact thing is happening? because I keep gaining weight and needing larger binders but I never remember to ACTUALLY BUY A WHOLE SIZE LARGER THAN SUGGESTED
it gives me terrible feelings about everything and i'm already feeling terrible today
i never know how tight is too tight and this might be fine but also maybe not? and just because it doesn't actually hurt my body doesn't mean that i should wear it if it still feels bad
srsly i kind of hate myself right now but also I dont have the patience for returning it or the money to buy another one